I am not a professional, I'm not tying to become one. At this point of my life I decided that being extremely good at what you do might be important in your professional life but not for your passions. I like what I'm doing and I do it for myself. That's so new for me. Publishing something does not mean, that it has to be perfect, you just have to like what you are doing. Maybe someone else will like it too, maybe not, its not important.
I started this project as a result of a very tough time in my life. Several parts of my personality died within the process. The good thing about it is that I started to discover new pats of myself and rediscovered parts I had lost long time ago. My life feels more intense now, I feel more alive, more interested in life. I broke free of some cozy, safe bubble I was living in, actually the correct term would probably be that I was kicked out of it. You just don't leave a cozy place without a very painful kick in the ass, or for my part: in the heart.
For some reason some time ago I started to care a lot about what other people thought of me. I let it go now, I just stop giving a fuck. I was told several times before to start a blog, but never had the guts to do it. This is the time to do it, to become more open, to plan less and just do it. Thinking of too many consequences can not only slow you down but turn you into a living dead.
In real life I am a PR writer and fire performer, I sometimes work at the opera. I am mother to a wonderful daughter. Art has always been a big part of my life for some reason not within the past years. The only form of my art that I have lived out publicly is stage performance. I still love it, it is my strongest passion, I'm used to it and I did not loose it at any time of my life. I actually started when I was six years old. Now I'm ready o experiment with new things, learn, have fun and probably fail many times.
If you like it, feel free to come back, if you don't like it, well you don't have to.